John, Thank you for sharing your experience here on Medium. I am very sorry for your loss. In your writing, I especially like the following:

One day I feel moved to write, and the next I make music. Another day I create videos. Some days I bake cakes and make bread and go for a long cycle ride.

I'm glad to know you have so many wonderful interests. I have not walked in your shoes, and cannot possibly know your pain. Holly sounds very special. My sincere condolences to you, Amy